At the Crossroads at Christmas 07

I am just back from church and I read the replies from my colleagues to my mail wishing them a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Those who knew "the news", wished me a wonderful new year knowing that I am at the crossroads of my future. They sounded more confident of my future than I did myself!

Yes, I had a good ride at Satyam - 9.5 years to boot. I had the ups and downs - mostly the ups - during my stay and I think I have morphed from a boy into a man. It took me 9.5 years but I guess I am ready to achieve what I had set out to achieve.

10 Years back when I sat in the corridors of Tapti hostel in IIT M wondering with Isaac and "" (forgot his name but remember his face very well), on the eve of the IIMC Interview, fretting that I did not know much of this world that I should be doing an MBA immediately out of IIT, I was not convinced then and I set out to discover myself at work before I thought I was ready to call myself a MBA manager. A path strewn with IIMC, IIMK, IIM L, Duke, Michigan, Kellogg, ISB ... ending with a non descript college - esmt - a school yet to prove itself. I do not know if it were providence that threw this school along my path but I am convinced I would have been less happier at INSEAD or any of the other US schools. Atleast this school is not pretentious ... there is no fat, yet. Now I will know if I do well, it is because of what I am capable of doing, rather than a brand of a school - I think I have come this long way from the Tapti corridor, my prayers answered and I will be a leader in my own right.

Perhaps the most important think I learnt is that My God is a Real Person - a Real Father. The prayers that I had made to him, asked with complete earnestness, 10-12 years back, he answers now ... He took me through a path that made me completely trust Him, though I had not put my complete trust in him and doubted him all along the way, he keeps his side of the bargain. Hopefully I will begin to trust him a little more now.

I have just got to work with a great team and I feel yanked away to do the MBA. As usual, I will fret and complain about God's timing but maybe when I reach the next point to stop and think, I will realise that the timing was perfect again.

So, Here I am at Christmas 07, with the joy of the company of a God who accomplished in me a 10 year task on the one hand and the fear of a new MBA school with an uncertain future on the other...

Eccl 1: 18 "For the wiser you are, the more worries you have, and the more you learn, the more you suffer"

God Bless and Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2008